Monday, March 23, 2009

二哥与三三

陈志鸿的婚礼上出现了一段沈从文的一行字,好像是说感谢在这个时候,遇上年龄正好的你。我就跟身边的菲谈起了沈从文。

我写的少,写的也不好,可有一样东西我是极有自信的。我自信能分辨文字的好坏。天才的文字是浑然天成的,你要是凡人就只能写出凡俗的文字。沈从文的文字是天掉下来刚好落到他的笔下的,他在思念的煎熬中书写的文字尤其是。

我念给菲他在船上给三三写信时说的一段话。他说:“我的手好像生来就是要为你写信的。”数年前读到这段时,心好像整个被他的手牢牢捉住,心跳都要止息了。

今晚找回书本跟记忆对照,发现原文实是“你这人好像天生就要我写信似的”,“...一离开,这只手除了为你写信,别的事便无论如何也做不好了”还有,“这只手既然离开了你,也只有那么来折磨它了”。文字跟我的记忆有别,可意境是一样的。那一只手,好像是三三的手,错生在了沈从文身上。

那一年沈从文从北方乘船回南方他的故乡,留了妻子三三在家中,他一上船就后悔没把她带在身边,结果只能靠一支笔把一叠信纸在船舱上维生。

他在旅途上把眼睛见到的、心上想的都搬到了信纸上,好像信纸是他附生的生命体。爱过的人都知道,爱情就是这么一回事。你的生活上发生了什么有趣事、苦恼事,你总要细细说与他听;你读到了一本好书、一篇好文章,总想让他也读一读;你看了什么好戏,总想让他也看一看。在爱中的沈从文,就是这么一回事,可他要比大部分的人都痴得利落些。

沈从文有才情而又深情,这种男子现世恐已所存无几,我们大概只能在文字的境界中幻想自己是三三了。


又:我是在数年前才发现的沈从文。第一本沈从文是伯伯买的沈从文散文集。第二本沈从文是自己买的沈从文散文集。我对沈从文那些写景写物的文章不怎么感兴趣,单喜欢看他写情。

接下来是要看他写的小说的。

37 comments:

波波 said...

阿思,你寫的很好,我很喜歡讀。

koolgeek said...

too deep. don't understand

安那琪 said...

应该读过《边城》了吧。俺自认没有什么文学鉴赏能力,只是在沈从文的文字中感到一种淡淡的感觉,读毕很想去茶峒......

阿始 said...

波波,谢谢你喜欢。

Koolgeek, it's about a man who thinks that his writing hand belongs to his love. Once he leeaves her, he can't live without writing to her.

This man is called Shen Cong Wen, and her love, San San.

安那琪,还没也,正托朋友买他的小说。

chial said...

上星期我在凤凰网读了沈从文写给张兆和的一段文字:

“我一辈子走过许多地方的路,行过许多地方的桥,看过许多次数的云,喝过许多种类的酒,却只爱过一个正当最好年龄的人。” ——沈从文《从文家书》

我想你说的就是这一段吧。

koolgeek said...

i'd encourage him save those excuses and start writing to a new love instead.

that's really lame i think

koolgeek said...

i'm pretty sure he will tell his new girl the same thing again, one day

;)

koolgeek said...

oh, he is probably an anti-social who doesn't meet and mix around with all the new people at those new 'roads', new 'bars', new places with 'clouds', new whatevar...

poor thing.. only the internet.

Ashi said...

chia, 正是,谢谢。Koolgeek, internet not born yet in his lifetime. If there was internet, there must be handphone for him to speak to his wife, and there must be convenient air transportation for him to fly his wife to him, and that only means there was no love letter and we don't get to read them. You sound like change love is as easy as changing clothes. This oly mean that you don't know yet how mad love can be. Shen was a good writer born in 1902, china.

Anonymous said...

我写的少,写的也不好,可有一样东西我是极有自信的。我自信能分辨文字的好坏。-- i think it's just so subsjective, on your own standard, everybody can claim they are a fine reader..
能分辨文字的好坏- thot it should come from a professor or something who have done years of research and study, otherwise, it's just personal preference that it's all about. the original LU REN JIA

Anonymous said...

anyway, Shen is a fine write i must say and pity those who can't appreciate his writing as they couldn't read chinese characters! again it's the authentic LU REN JIa

Ashi said...

lu ren jia, well, on the ability to differentiate good and bad writing, i don't believe in the amount of research one has done. I take it as a gift. You can say i'm subjective.

Anonymous said...

well, if that's the case you would hardly convince people that you hv the gift, coz you are not the authority, so it's really subjective, lu renjia

lu ren yi said...

阿思读的好,写的也好。

koolgeek said...

who can claim to know what is true love?

Anonymous said...

when you are willing to sacrifice your life for that person (on the condition that you are not causing harm to a third party), you're quite close to it.... LU REN JIA

Anonymous said...

for example, if Ashi is to be sentenced to death for some reason by the Najis government, and you said "don't put her on the electric chair, instead I will die for her"...something like that, just illustrate my point lar...lu renjia again

Yen said...

Hi, WS. Since long that I didn't come up on air. I would say simple and faithful love will develop a trust-worthy and honest man. "It's definitely not from my otherwise experience." -PY

koolgeek said...

in that case, it's interesting to see how we measure how close each of us are to 'true love'.

koolgeek said...

how about a 'trust-worthy and honest WOman'?

Ashi said...

It seems that you guys had a hot discussions in my absense... let me try to say something..

Ashi said...

确实是太狂妄了,凡人一个,竟然自称能辨识文字的好坏,更何况世间一切的价值原就没有客观标准,有的只是大部分人的标准、这一类人的标准、那一类人的标准......

只是我可又真的觉得文字有好坏之分的。文思泉涌写出来的文字,跟绞尽脑汁写出来的文字,有明显的差别;天生的写作人写来打救自己的文字,跟一心要登文字殿堂的人写来参赛的文字,更是差别大了。我想这真是能看的出来的。

Ashi said...

about the issue of "true love", I don't differentiate love to true, false, truer, falser (Koolgeek, I just think that people in love can be very mad).

Love is just love, and it is largely by chance we love this person, and not that person. It is no use for a person in love to think that, "is he/she my true love? shall I go on to find my true love?"

I take St. Exupery's definition of love that it is the time, the cares and the patience we put on that person that make him/her special. If not, he/she is just the same as anybody else.

Anonymous said...

when people are in doubts, there comes the concept of "true love".
Love is not infatuation, fanatic or pure madness, which a lot of people have mistaken as love.
I quite agree with the St.Exubery definition of love and think it will be quite complete if you add my "sacrificing love" element in. :P the purest Lu Ren Jia

Anonymous said...

哇,好热闹!

"我可又真的觉得文字有好坏之分的。文思泉涌写出来的文字,跟绞尽脑汁写出来的文字,有明显的差别"

hmm,阿始你是说文思泉涌就是好的,绞尽脑汁就是坏的??

再来,我们看起来文思泉涌的,怎么知道人家是不是绞尽脑汁慢慢雕出来的呢?

是在谈“天才/天分/才气 vs 努力” 吗?

才气很有魅力,足以造就一个偶像,但不足以成大师。那些大师,真的都还要有很多很多其他的。比如努力,比如真诚。

“天生的写作人写来打救自己的文字,跟一心要登文字殿堂的人写来参赛的文字,更是差别大了。”

要这样比的话,how about 有才气(文思泉涌)的人为了赢奖而写一些他知道会赢奖的文字?和一个没什么才气可是很努力(绞尽脑汁)写出自己感情的人?

hmm,我想,感动人的(你所谓的或好的?),很多时候是真诚不真诚的问题,不是文思泉涌跟绞尽脑汁的问题吧!

我飘在两边的上面,等指教。


美女

koolgeek said...

that's right. there is only love.

love can be mad. and it turns mad, it's ugly. when it's ugly, then it's no longer love.

so mad love is no love.

koolgeek said...

sincerity is not enough.

you need to work hard.

Ashi said...

我是相信天才、天资这类东西的,而这类东西是没法用理性说明的。

我相信,天才无需怎么努力就能突出自己,又或是他跟别人一样努力,可他就是跟别人不一样。可是,这并不是说,天才写出来的东西就是好的,天才可写出天才该写的东西,也可以写出绝非天才该写的东西,全然视乎他以什么心态写作。

我没法证明好作品是在文思泉涌的情况下成形的,还是在绞尽脑汁的情况下完成的,可我认为我们能读的出来是故事/心情找上作者的,还是作者找上故事/心情的。

我总以为,在有话要说的情况下“生”出来的作品肯定比需要找话说的情况下“写”出来的作品好。大胆地说一句,像张爱玲朱天文有的作品也不是好的,也只是在努力地叙事而已,读者是可以感受到的。

Anonymous said...

像张爱玲朱天文有的作品也不是好的,也只是在努力地叙事而已,读者是可以感受到的。朱天文i never read, cannot comment, but I don't agree with you on张爱玲. it's just the different genres that we are talking about. Lu Ren Jia

Anonymous said...

disclaimer i ain't zhang ai ling fan...LRJ

Ashi said...

ai... I'm just talking about "some of" (you de) her works lah. I regard her as a genius in literature.

Anonymous said...

yea, i notice, i think i don't quite like zhang ai ling also because i thought she's being quite a bit too much self-pity in her writing...probably that explains the "too much efforts" in telling things...

Ashi said...

Mr Lu, actually I like Zhang Ai Ling very much. I think most of her works are good, especially her long novels. Just that I can't really say good for a few pieces of short novels she wrote.

Ashi said...

美女,还需要说的是,我原没有给好坏下定义的意思,只是想说出好坏的某一种形态,这么说自然是非常狭隘的。

我说文思泉涌和绞尽脑汁,想到的是沈从文的散文(我最近在读的)和一些滥文的明显对比。读沈的文章可感觉到,沈是那种全身都盛满文字、随时都需宣泄以自救的天生写作人。他笔下那种像天掉下来的字句,实非那些奇奇怪怪乱砌文字的写作人可比(我并非写作人。如果我是,我也是这个范畴的)。

无论如何,写作是需经过构思、铺陈、查资料这些累人的过程的,说来还是一件需要努力去做的事。我想天才也还真的需要努力的。

庄德志 said...

路过,我是路人N。

是的,这就是现代人的书写习惯,在1900年的时候,应该不可能有人会自称“路人N”。时代的不同,环境的不同,造就的生活方式和爱的模式都会不同,就好象徐志摩和他的三个女人。

我觉得活在一百年以后的我们,或许就以文学的角度去看待和欣赏,而文学是必须有感情的,所以我们也去体会文字中的情绪,那就很足够很快乐了。

至于作者本身怎么样?个性如何?还是搞自闭什么都好,还是留给专家去研究和批判。

我看文字的要求很简单,看得懂,看得感动,认同或否定作者,就罢。我不太迷信作者当初是不是真的如他写的那么痴情专一,既然作者要人们看到的是这些面,我们就看这些面。文学这事儿再认真的研究下去就变考古了。

阿始摘录沈从文的文字,看了会唤醒人的感性,唤醒对爱情的单纯美丽的渴望,这样就够了。生活在一个功利的社会,我们有多少时间还能记得自己曾经是如此的感性和触觉敏锐?有多少次我们还愿意让自己感性和活在理想之中呢?

何必去批判沈从文是个什么样的人?何必去界定阿始对文字的分辨力具不具所谓的客观因素?

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Gemini said...

“感谢在这个时候,遇上年龄正好的你。”这一句我喜欢。

“我的手好像生来就是要为你写信的。” 而这一句不期然让我想起了当年张曼娟凭着“海水正蓝”声名鹊起时,林清玄是这么评论她的文字:“这是一支天生的笔。”