Thursday, July 24, 2008

禾的预言

十年前你就已预言了今天。

我们玩累了枕头大战,躺在床上说学校老师和同学的坏话。把该骂的人都骂完了,你突然问起我喜欢什么样的男生。我说,有才华的幽默的帅气的高高的能让我仰望的很爱我的我很爱的。你笑。你说那该是好几个男生的总和,世界上没有那么便宜的事。我没有相信你。那是十年前。

十年前你就预言了今天。

因为包菜耐放又抵吃的关系,那时候我们天天吃着包菜。除了包菜,我们每星期的晚饭内容还有鸡。你们教懂我煮咖哩鸡和腐竹南乳鸡,每星期轮到我煮饭那一天,你们总是能吃到咖哩鸡或腐竹南乳鸡。第一次煮好时满手的成就感,逐渐演变成负累。一次晚饭后,你听了我的牢骚之后淡淡地说,人生就是如此的,未来只有更累人。

十年前你就预言了今天。

你一定问过我,爱情、亲情、健康、金钱、学业,你把哪个放在第一位?我也一定做过那样的事:毫不犹豫地把健康放在最后一位。我有足够的健康供挥霍,健康是我最没有必要放在心上的事。你劝我莫太嚣张。你说,你知道吗,再过十年我们谈话的内容就是金钱和健康了。

十年前你就预言了今天。

4 comments:

koolgeek said...

that's just part of growing up. live with it. btw, not everyone is so concerned on knowing what's coming up in 10 years. what's more important is you live and learn as you age.

it builds up to a lifetime. your life story.

so wat's in place ten years from now? don't worry bout it too much. we all have our weird anticipation of this world at younger age. it doesn't necessary mean a bad thing.

if you give up on what you stood up for, you give up on your hopes and dreams. you give up on yourself. albeit an expensive, materialistic and unhealthy world, you can manage to live through it being yourself. we're closer to death with each passing day anyway.

happiness is a pursuit. it's not attainable.

you may have this perfect man of your dream. it isn't too bad to settle for one with some of the bad qualities, but whom you'll cherish for his better ones.

so wat's in place ten years from now? why bother...

Ashi said...

Koolgeek, how many dreams come true in one's life? Have you so far realised any of your dreams? Am I repeating my life? I don't know. I think I need something new, fresh and close to the real me before my journey ends.

Tell u one thing, Ashi is my Japanese name. It comes from a character in Murakami's book. One boring day 10 years ago, me and 3 housemates of mine talked about giving ourselves a new name. I decided to call myself Ashi, and my best friend chose to call herself Ahe (title of this post). We then decided to have a little competition: see whose new name spred widest and called most.

10 years later, I prove I'm the winner.

koolgeek said...

have I realised my dreams? well, some yes. some yet. but life to me is more than just about ticking yes/no on your dream list. what you experience and how you grow and what you get along the way are important too.

congrats on your win. so what's the prize?

Ashi said...

Can I ask one question? or two? How old are you? And do you really understand Chinese? :-) don't beat me, it is just too hard for me to believe, a person with such a good command in English can understand Chinese.

I stayed in 4th colleague, room A007.